I’ve never been so much with the forgiveness. I’m better than I used to be, but not great. Basically, if you screw me, you’re dead to me. I used to hold grudges pretty tightly, but I’ve really let go of that, as it only hurts me. I don’t have any conscious bad feelings toward people who have wronged me, but I certainly don’t want to have any interactions with them. I don’t think that re-kindling a friendship is always part of forgiveness – sometimes, but not always. It is something I’d like to get better at though.
As I’ve mentioned earlier, this Lenten season has included more focused time with God and more interactions and there have been some meditations on the subject of forgiveness. I’ve basically said to God what I said above, that I don’t hate them but I don’t want to see them. Then, of course, this week includes seeing two people from FCC (former community church), one the ultimate wronger to whom I only refer as Rev. Evilspawn and the other a former member who didn’t do anything to me but represents that place is here at the conference in Oregon.
Evilspawn lives in my neighborhood and the law of averages made that inevitable. There are other folks, though, that I dread having an interaction with, if pressed. I say “other folks” like there’s a list. There’s really just 2. Seriously, can I just CLEP out of this one?